I had began asking a lot of questions of myself, the biggest one being “What do I REALLY want?” At the same time two other things happened. I was introduced to life coaching and I attended a conference with Dan Allender on intimacy. The conference was excellent, but the question that Dan asked in the middle of it (and I am absolutely sure it was totally directed to me) was, “What do you want to do with your one beautiful life?” The answer was immediate. “Certainly not what I am doing now.”
Through life coaching, the question “What are the top three feelings you have on a daily basis?” The answer was, unsatisfied, frustrated and sad. That was a painful revelation. That question was quickly followed by: “What do you want them to be?” I wanted to feel contentment, excited and joyful.
Shortly after this I was in a songwriting course and had been given an assignment. I don’t remember what the specific assignment was, but I had so much stuff in my head and heart that I could not write to it in that moment. So at the top of my page I simply wrote the words “This is for Me” and the following poured out of me.
This is For Me (Follow Every Passion)
Out on the horizon is a place I’ve never been
Where distant dreams and happenings
Are waiting to begin
Where unseen shores and longings
Unfold within the heart
The trumpet shout of morning
Calls out for me to start
To the highest mountain, I dare to make my climb
While sudden turns and scenic views
Offer a sweet surprise
Where tumbling stones and small slips
Challenge me to set my eye
And press on to the summit
With a purpose not denied
I know the voice of struggle who desires to hold me back
He reminds me of my failures, each time I get off track
But falling down only bruises knees, the spirit still has wings,
To catch a sweeping current and take off with the breeze
To the constellations with starlight in my eyes
I hang tomorrow on the moon
And wave as I pass by
Where sunshine in my laughter
Says the future’s brighter still
As I follow every passion
Until my heart is stilled
That was 15 months ago. While it was very difficult to do, I knew in that moment that I loved my reason for leaving behind that current job and stepping into the next part of my journey more than I loved my reason for staying. Today my top three daily feelings are contentment, excitement and joy. I am a life coach, a songwriter, a mother, a grandmother, a friend, a creator of beauty and fan of laughter. I can’t begin to tell you how many times I have heard the words “Welcome back” from friends and family.
What do you want to do with YOUR one beautiful life? You really do get to decide. Isn’t that great news?