The last day of December with a whole new year ahead of me and I sit and stare at the blank calendar.
The possibilities are endless! One would think that feelings of excited anticipation would be bubbling over from my very being. Instead…what is this I am feeling? Resistance. I recognize this feeling. So how do I respond?
Procrastination has some great forms. Let me expose a few of mine. Facebook. Email. Store ads (there are some great clearance sales). Lunch. A snack. Searching for the perfect calendar. Cleaning. (You gotta love that one. At least I am getting stuff done, right?) The people who live with me. Exercise. (Now I am getting desperate!)
I know that a plan and a schedule will help me reach my goals. Yet, I resist. Why?
If I am willing to survey my thoughts, this is what I will find…
“I want to be spontaneous, flexible and free to go with the moment.”
“I am an artist and rigidity stifles creativity.”
“No one is going to tell me where I have to be when.” (Oh, there she is…emotional childhood stomping her foot.)
“If I make a plan then I will have to be responsible to keep it.” And tied very closely to this one…
“What if I can’t do it?”
Need I go on?
I am a contemplative, introspective, a ponderer. I have never been at the forefront, cheering in the new year. I have a tendency to be nostalgic about another year passing and the increasing pace at which time moves. So often Dec 31st finds me in this attitude rather than cheering the dropping ball and toasting in the new year.
I can choose to stay here if I want. I am an adult who is free to choose (and accept responsibility for my choice). Do I like my reason for staying here in resistance and claiming procrastination as my right?
No, I really don’t. So then…this is my plan.
Decide what I really want for 2016. Set goals to get there. Block out the hours on my calendar with the work that will help me achieve those goals. Keep that calendar diligently for one month. Give myself space to evaluate after that one month. Adjust accordingly. Chances are I will be well on my way to what I REALLY desire and I will sign up for another month of beautiful living.
What is your plan for beautiful living in the new year?
Want some help? I can add you to my calendar and we can figure that out together!
Have a Beautiful New Year!